Passage with Significance to me

"I tried to summon courage, the same courage God had given me for past crises, but it was gone, already disintegration g inside a cocoon of despair. I pressed my spirit naked against God, that He might conceive new courage within me. He conceived it and it grew, actually feeding on the despair that killed its predecessor In a few moments it was ready to be born in action. (209)" This is important to me because a lot of times, I feel like this I feel as if I don't have the courage to do what God wants me to do. I know he wants me to be a witness at this school, he wants me to glorify him in my living. But you know how hard that is. To dedicate your body and soul to someone you cannot see. Sometimes the only way I can get by is by drawing near to God and asking him for help. I know that if I don't do that, there is no possible way I can live this life. When struggles come, and they do come, I have to respond to them. One way I can respond is to act angry and hate everyone around me that day, or I can love everyone that day. The latter is more difficult, but its always better. that one God will give you courage if you do it. He will give you the power to resist temptation, so you can find a way from under it.